自私

霖和 Erin ：

我看到你們倆跟我說的話，我真的好感激你們！

謝謝你們在我最需要安慰時，陪著我。
就像我對霖說的 ： 字是無法表達我對你們的感激

我的確因為這些友情的事情，忽略了身邊的不少人
我只顧著和她們訴苦，忘記了她們也有著自己的雨天

對，像霖說的那樣， 我無法變成每個人所盼望的人
我也不能變成每個人的朋友
我也不想因為友情，而改變了自己的性格。那麼，那段友情真的太虛偽了

原本那麼簡單的事情，我把它變成那麼復雜




這句話，我要獻給一些人 ：

" 謝謝你們曾經帶給我歡笑，對我的生活貢獻了精彩的一段。 " - 霖

雖然我們不能建立一段深刻的友情，可是認識你們，真的讓我好開心
我知道跟我說話很無聊，可是我是用我最真誠的心對待這份友情

我也知道，我不管怎麼努力，我都無法把這段友情變得像以前那樣
我感到非常遺憾，因為你們看不到那個帶著面具的雙面人

算了，遲早你們也是會發現的。

這段友情 。。。

曾經帶給我讓我無法忘記的快樂

曾經讓我不想在這世界上活著

曾經讓我只想拋開一切，和她們一起瘋瘋癲癲

曾經讓我感到非常非常地疲倦

曾經讓我覺得為她們所做的一切、所付出的一切，都是值得的

謝謝你們曾經帶給我的一切的一切，我一定不會忘記的。

心情現在非常地復雜
為什麼 。。。 我一直都在問為什麼 。。。

我的心好亂，好痛
我有那麼多想對她們說的話，可是卻說不出口

我試著把問題找出來，可是卻沒得到答案
我也試著跟你們多說點話，可是我只得到一兩個字的回答
我好傻，怎麼因為要和她們融入成一塊而改變自己所有的一切呢？

我的笑容到哪啦？以前瘋瘋癲癲的我，現在，只想日子快點過去
我怎麼又哭了？哭哭哭，就只會哭！！！
我真的受不了自己了 。。。

為什麼，每次心里難受時，只想逃避？

我也是有感情的 。。。我也似乎感受得到她們心里在想些什麼
我知道我一直跟著你們，一定很討人厭

我傻傻的以為只要我和你們多花點時間，你們就會理我了
我知道，因為我的興趣跟你們不同，所以造成了我和你們融不進

友情的問題，真的讓人好累


星期三，當電腦課結束了時候，我轉身背起書包，想要喊你們時 。。。
發現你們已經走了
我愣住在那里，把心里的念頭統統往肚子里面吞

你們可以跟我說，我有什麼地方弄你們生氣了嗎？
因為我真的想不出我有做了些什麼熱火你們了
對，你們說時沒有話跟我說，可是我也一直拼命找話題聊
你們也說不知道 。。 。哪為什麼你們不理我呢？
你們知道你們的一舉一動真的 。。。 好傷人
就像你們送給老師的那本書，沒有我。沒關系，是你們付錢的嘛


我現在沒有朋友了嗎？
我自己也不知道。。。
也許我在這個世界上根本就是一個錯誤。

我只想跟你們說：

如果我真的有什麼地方得罪了你們，我說聲對不起好嗎？？？？？

我受不了了，我真的總有一天會崩潰

唯一的選擇

心碎了。

這一切的一切，變化好快
就在一個晚上內，全都變了
擁有的，現在都不在乎我了。

我好愛哭啊，怎麼一點點就哭了呢？
這麼經不起考驗。
我試著忍著淚水，不想讓別人看到我心中到底有多復雜
可是跟別人透露心事時，我再也控制不了了

我今天真的沒心情上課
看著她們三個在后面嘻嘻哈哈、玩得那麼愉快
感覺 。。。 我根本融入不進里面
有可能我根本就不屬于她們那組吧
我好失敗
我好累，我真的累了

這些，感覺好像夢境，一點都不真實
她們都好像不想理我了，我卻傻傻的跟著
每當看見她們在笑時，我真的 。。。

我也不能做些什麼 。。。只能自己安安靜靜，平靜的過屬于自己的生活
那是我唯一的選擇

心中的吶喊

今天的我，到底發生了什麼事？
為什么，把自己搞得 。。。 那麼疲倦、辛苦

在教室里，自己一直想東想西，根本沒有心思上課
浪費了一滴，又一滴的眼淚
對，我知道我這樣真的很討人厭 。。。

可是我累了，我真的累了
有可能是我一直用微笑來蓋著自己心里所有一切的一切
所以沒有人看得出我是有多麼的害怕、疲累
心中的吶喊，又有誰能聽見？

昨晚，我浪費了兩個小時和無數的眼淚
自己有時候能想心事，想得太投入

我今天，不知怎麼了，心怎麼那麼痛？
我也不敢把自己所有的不快樂，表現在臉上，畏懼她們會覺得很煩
為什麼，一個人能帶來那麼多差別

Yu Pin ：
我知道我今天做了很多令你覺得厭煩的事
當你不理我的時候，我知道自己也太過過分了
我很想把這些話啊告訴你，可是我不知道怎麼開口
對不起，對不起、我知道自己真的很煩
可是我有時候很想要你的注意力，所以就做出那些過分的事
我真的知道錯了，我答應你，我以后再也不會做什麼，讓你生氣
因為我真的很珍惜你和 Doreen 這個朋友
你們甚至比我的父母更跟我親密

Totally screwed exams

Me and Kimberly decided to go crazy over Yu Pin during the midst of maths lesson

We decided to open a fan club for her and then we shall make tee shirts with Yu Pin's face
The back shall be :
" She has perfect looks
She has perfect voice
She has perfect grades
She has perfect LIFE "

On sat, we went sing karaoke, and trust me, Yu Pin sang freakingly nice!!!
Then the whole day of today, me and Kimberly were like :
1) Helping her carry her bag
2) Fanning her
3) Protecting her from the salty piggy hand ( a.k.a Wei Shan )

It was fun ... but tiring =0=


Got back some papers today
The only result that I'm pleased of, is my Science
The rest sucked
Now I'm super worried about English


You're trying EVER SO HARD to be chio ... and failed (:

Lunch at Jack's Place

Finally the exams are over!

After Literature paper today, me, Yu Pin, Doreen & Kimberly went out
We went to library at first to borrow books
Then after that me and Doreen are VERY VERY hungry that our stomach kept on growling
Then Kimberly wanted to finish the Baby Blue's comic so we waited for a long time



She finally finished reading and so we decided to go Marina Square and have our lunch
But Kimberly said that she has no money so she went home first
So sad luhhs


Arrived at Jack's Place
We ordered Student meal each
Yu Pin had fish and chips while me and doreen had chicken cutlet
They served the drinks really slow so Yu Pin decided to fill up the customer service form

I think she gave comments about the garlic bread not arriving
Just as she wrote that, the garlic bread and drinks arrived =0=
So the paper ended up :
After a long long wait and chatting about totally random stuffs, our food arrived!

I only took a picture of the chicken cutlet because it looks the same for both of me and doreen's dishes?

Yu Pin's fish'n'chips :
PS : Sorry for the ugly photo shot at an ugly angle
In real life, it looks damn delicious!

After that I decided to try the tar tar sauce on Yu Pin's plate
Omg I'm so in love with it!
It is so nice and I bet I can eat it alone without anything!
And Yu Pin finished most of her tar tar sauce and she asked for more ( Me too! )

And Yu Pin made this :

Its damn cute luhhs!

Oh ya, our meal came with this :

Yu Pin said that it is not very nice but her father like it
And we had this long chat about eating lime seeds will don't know what black magic

- Burps - Its damn nice!
The chicken cutlet is coated with bread flour ( whatever you call that thing )
Its nicer then Swensens, not to mention, cheaper

Ice creams that came with the meal
Can you believe it?
The ice cream was considered quite a lot!
I had - Totally chocolate
Doreen - Strawberry & Vanilla
Yu Pin - Chocolate and Vanilla

I finished mine in a short time

The bill
Total added up - $7.65 per person
Its cheaper than what I expected
In fact, much more cheaper

After that we went to many many shops
We just went inside and never buy anything
Just fooling around, touching all the stuffs

We went to like Roxy, RipCurl, New Urban Male, Wallet shop and many others
Looked at shirts, dresses lava lamps, bikinis, bags and many more
Its damn shiok!

Okay random pictures :
WARNING :
The following contains super ultra random pictures
Please don't view if you don't want to waste your time



Interesting? :/
You know those magnetic couple keychains?

We went to see fishes!
Ugliest fish we have ever seen
The proportional is very ... inproportional?
Actually I took many more pictures
But I'm using bluetooth to transfer the pictures to my laptop
So its very troublesome

I'll just keep the memories in my heart :D

Oh ya, we kept on starring at these :
Sorry for the uninteresting post that make the interesting day uninteresting
Hee hee

Look forward to tomorrow!

Please don't abandon me

Today we had science and english paper.

Oh man I hate the English paper!
Its so hard! And we still have to do planning.
Guess what?
I actually wrote question 3, the one about someone being judged by his/her appearence
Then at 8.30a.m ( Yes, I also can't believe I can remember the time )
I decided to correction-tape the whole plan and wrote question 2
The ' My first lie '
And we are suppose to stop the paper at 9 a.m
How stupid am I man?!
My ending was super super abrupt


My hands were trembling when I handed up the paper

Then we had our 1 and 15 mins hour break
Went to hall to study
At first everybody studied quietly, but then around 9.45 we all started playing
That includes :
1) Throwing Yu Pin's things around ( MOST FUN! )
2) Laughing and giggling over small stuff
3) Talking and yaking
4) Many many more that I can't remember


Luckily, I've studied yesterday, so the science paper, to me is quite okay.
Like Kim, its the only paper where I have time to check


Thought over a lot of stuff during the paper
Yes, its my sensitivity that can make people feel that I'm irritating
But I'm really afraid that I'll loose them
I feel so ... tangled up now
I'm afraid that I'll be the one walking alone on the road to J8
And them, in front of me, like last year
I really don't want that...
I know its very irritating for me to keep on asking them
" 你會拋棄我嗎？"

不要拋棄我，好嗎？